So lately I've been feeling overwhelmed by life. Work. School. Family. Bills. Money in general. EVERYTHING is non-stop and driving me up the wall...stressing me out and making my anxiety out of control. So I decided it was time for a change. But, the only problem with that is, the only thing I can really change right now is my hair. SO I got it cut off. 12' cut off and set in front of me as she chopped off more of it. I don't think I really need to say that it was hard to do, but I'm going to say it anyway...it was HARD to do. But I'm very very pleased with the results!
Why is life overwhelming? Well I'm working two jobs...well the first really isn't work most of the time cause its babysitting a 17 month old cutie pie from 8-4 tues/thurs. But then I am still working at Lifetime as a Supervisor from 5-9 tues/thurs and then 8-6 on saturdays. That is the stressful part of work because 1. we don't have a department head so Lisa, Kendell, and I are running everything. 2. Corporate cut our budget in half and left out enough for a department head salary so everyone is getting cut ours and we're working on the MINIMUM staff requirements. Can't do breaks, cant get cleaning done, lots of angry staff and stressed out supervisors. Oh and they're still yelling at us to cut more hours which if we do will effect the safety of the child center...ugh!!! why do people have to be so dumb? i understand that the economy is in a crisis right now but whatever! Lifetime is like the most expensive gym ever and they have tons of members, they can afford to give us enough budget to keep our member's kids safe while they're in the gym. ugh...
On top of that, school is busy busy busy...i knew what i was getting into when i switched majors to English..lots and lots of reading...but since i'm already done with all my core classes ..all i have are my English courses and i have to take at least 12 hours to stay full time..which means 4 english classes at once...that means TONS of reading and writing papers and hardly any time for anything else.
This also hasn't been the best year for my family so far...lots of drama and stuff...most of it is settled down now but every once in a while it creeps up and spoils life. and everyone who has bills know they're a never ending vicious cycle. I dont want to say that i hate money...but i dislike it with a passion because it takes money to do ANYTHING!! I love being independent and not having to lean on anyone for help with money , but i dont love the feeling of having to budget down to the penny every day of my life.
OH WELL...life goes on right? I just needed to vent...and this is a good place for it:).
Peace out!
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